The Queen of Nondisclosure

It might seem, what with the public internet not very secretly named journal, that I'm a fairly open person. I am not. I'm really, really guarded. I'm only open in situations where I can control what I share, so that's why I'm okay with this, I guess. Emotional intimacy scares me. I sent a fairly open email to someone I'm starting to get close to and waiting for the response. I suppose I'm always afraid of being rejected. I don't like being in situations where I feel vulnerable and it's hard to be open and not be vulnerable (well, it's actually probably impossible). So that's where I am right now. Anxious, nervous, taking baby steps towards trying to connect with someone. And being a little more honest right here.