Stupid Baseball

No House for the month of October (and, I assume, no OC) because of baseball. Stupid baseball.

In other news, I have two tests in HR this week (since it's only an eight week class, I only have it for a few more weeks). The first test was yesterday and I think it went pretty well. The second test is Friday and I'm worried about it a bit since we only have one class period to go over the material for it.

I got signed up for the classes Hiedi Swapp is teaching at my local scrapbook store, so I'm really excited about that. Not much else to report right now.

Random

Just a random post of stuff that's been going on.

• I have family in Beaumont and Houston who have evacuated to Austin. Even though I know they're most likely safe there, I can't tear myself away from CNN.
• I did alot better on my second test in HR. So I've moved my average up to a 68, which hasn't really made me any less stressed about it.
• I have to take bowling for my "lifetime activity". I am really, really bad at bowling. This could actually be an issue because you can't just show up and bowl you have to actually learn it and stuff.

The Queen of Nondisclosure

It might seem, what with the public internet not very secretly named journal, that I'm a fairly open person. I am not. I'm really, really guarded. I'm only open in situations where I can control what I share, so that's why I'm okay with this, I guess. Emotional intimacy scares me. I sent a fairly open email to someone I'm starting to get close to and waiting for the response. I suppose I'm always afraid of being rejected. I don't like being in situations where I feel vulnerable and it's hard to be open and not be vulnerable (well, it's actually probably impossible). So that's where I am right now. Anxious, nervous, taking baby steps towards trying to connect with someone. And being a little more honest right here.

Mentor

For one of my classes we all have to mentor a specific grade school aged child once a week. I got into contact with the teacher of the child I'm working with today, to find out the areas I need to work on with her. I got a kid who needs help with self confidence and making friends. Not really playing to my strengths here, since those are the two things I need someone to mentor me in. So I am, perhaps, mentoring a little me. Scary thoughts.

House M.D.

I'm completely obsessed with this show. It's far and away my favorite show on television right now. Hugh Laurie is amazing. He's absolutely captivating to watch. I can't take my eyes off him. (and on a shallow note, he's oh so easy on the eyes and has the most beautiful blue eyes, the kind you get caught up in and forget to pay attention. le sigh. he's dreamy.) I didn't actually start watching the show until the season finale, which I watched on vacation. And fell in love with. So I started watching the reruns every week. And then I got the dvds. So now I've seen every episode. Most more than once. If you've never seen it, I'd encourage you to check it out. It really is amazing television.

You take the good, you take the bad

The good: No class on Friday. Always, always good.

The bad: I really bombed a test I took last Friday. like, really, really. And now I'm freaking out about the class, about failing and not graduating and it's just so stressing me out. Over one twenty point test. I hate it when I get like this.

Today's entry is brought to you by the letter C

First, for CKU in KC. Which I didn't get to go to, because I couldn't get the funds together. Which I wouldn't have been able to go to anyway, because I had a test yesterday, so it actually worked out in my favor.

But since CKU is in town, my favoritest local scrapbook store took part in a special event Wednesday and Thursday. So on Thursday night I got the very, very special treat of touring K&CO's studio and distribution center. It was such an awesome, awesome opportunity that I'm really grateful I got to take part in.

Also on Thursday, The OC came back on. Oh, Seth Cohen, how I love you.

And for my last C, if you read this I'd love to see you comment. I'm just curious if anybody's out there.

Stress

I think I have more work to do this semester than I've ever had before. And I'm already stressed out about it. Which helps to explain why I'm awake at 6:30 when I don't have class until 1 this afternoon. Because I'm stressed out about not getting all my work done. I thought that I would be calmed than this. Because honestly, although the stress itsn't good for me mentally, I work best under deadlines. I've really never had a problem getting things done before. I don't know why it's getting to me now. But here I am, typing up court case summaries for my human resources class at 6:30 in the morning, questioning what I'm doing with my life, having all those deep thoughts I can't chase away in the middle of the night. And really hoping that it's all worth it.

Seasons of Love

I freak out whenever I see a trailer for Rent. I don't know how I'm going to make it until November. I just love the play so, so much, to the point I literally tear up watching a commercial! It's so crazy. And it may well be a sign that I'm crazy. Sigh. I don't what I'm going to do with me.

Late

I was late this morning. Why? Because I hit the snooze button one too many times. And then tried to get all my email read. Which meant I was getting dressed at 7:45 and class started at 8. I was only a couple of minutes late, but I felt so stupid. Gah.